I’ve had a really hard year. I’m 100% sure I’m not alone.
I recently sat down and looked at the number of books I’ve read this year and it is no where near what is normal for me. I’m at 25! That is not me. I usually spend a lot of time reading. Over 100 a year.
Here’s the thing…
I have been distracted by life in the most literal way. I dedicated so much time and energy to a relationship that wasn’t at all what I thought it would be. I didn’t read as much because I was too “busy” trying to make something work that wasn’t meant to work. I won’t make that mistake again. I’m sure others can relate to putting someone first above other things in life. Reading took a back burner for sure.
I’ve also been sick all year. I’m good at hiding when I’m not feeling well. I hid it for as long as I could, but now I’m not well at all. I’ve got surgeries pending and it can be extremely stressful to think about.
I also homeschool the kids and that takes so much of my time. If you factor in school, relationship, and carving out me time, you don’t get much time for reading.
It’s been a little over a month of grieving for a relationship lost. It took some time, but I’m tired of thinking about it. It ended for a reason and I now realize that I’m so thankful it did. There are many reasons I think that but I can share that I think that him breaking things off was a blessing in disguise. I think I dodged a bullet. Irony, right?
I’ve finally gotten back into the books. I’m going to try and get back to a number that is worthy of me being an avid reader. I’m going to try and work reading into my daily routine again. I felt so empty and lost without it.
I’m also working on some publishing material that will be coming out during Christmas time. So, I’m happy to get back to reading and writing and focusing all my energy on my kids and what is important in my career. It’s so funny how things can get thrown at you and derail all the hard work you put in.
I’m back on track, feeling better than ever. I may be sick and I may not be able to eat food or exercise, but I’m feeling mentally strong. That is important to me.
Tell me…Have you struggled reading this year too?