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Blogmas Day 1: Reflecting on 2021

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Looking back on this year, I can firmly say that it ended much better than it began. As I’m sure most of us hope for. When the new year begins, we make resolutions, set goals, and hope the year ahead is better than the one before. To be honest, I just hoped that I survived the year and was safe from Covid. I wanted to keep my kids safe and to help them grow academically. I hope that I learned lessons that I needed to, that my kids grew appropriately, and that my faith remained strong. I can say, now, that some of these are true.

My children, while still behind in math, have grown academically. They have exceled and I can still say, after being in our third year, I don’t regret homeschooling them. Does it get exhausting having them home all the time? Sometimes, I’ll admit. There are times that I wish I could just have a moment alone and not when they are asleep in bed. Often times, I work through the day and when they go to bed, I am not far behind them. I don’t want to sit up late at night, exhausted from my day, just to grab a few quiet moments. Even so, I love having them around. When they visit family, I often miss them and the noise they create. The laughter, the love, the youth of it all is what makes me happy.

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This year, in the beginning, was rough for me. I had many friends who were sick, or going through tough spots. There was death, illness, diagnoses, depression, anxiety, and a sad bought of suicidal thoughts from those I admire, those I care about. I found, that even when I wasn’t in constant contact with them, they plagued my dreams, plagued my thoughts a lot of the time. There was family drama, as there is for most of us, in my friends and frustration at how to handle it all.

For me, I had a quiet year, as I do most of the time. I tend to be a homebody. I spend my time writing, reading, practicing my faith, and teaching my children. To me, I live a rewarding life. Would I rather go get a job somewhere and make more money? Sure, who wouldn’t? But I will admit that if I do get a job in the future, I’ll miss out on precious moments with my kids. Despite my illness, my health concerns, and the fact that I have been home for sometime, the future is bright.

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This year, I lost 76 pounds. So far. I had weight loss surgery and learned a ton about nutrition and healthy eating. I’m still learning and enjoy the process. My daughter is overweight and that helps me learn nutrition in kids and genetic components for obesity. I think that I’ve made some amazing choices in terms of our diet. Things are going well for us and I couldn’t be happier with the results for both me and my children.

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There was the biggest struggle for me this year, loneliness. It’s something I rarely speak of. Mostly because I don’t like getting those pitying stares from others. At the church I attend, I’m one of the only single women there. I’m also the only one who has children, unless you count grandchildren. I love my church family and it can be a bit isolating to see all these amazing couples. And I spend most of my time with my kids. I’m sure in the future, this will change. For now, I try to contact my family and fill that emptiness with scripture and study. With friends and family.

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This year, I’m happy to say that I didn’t fall into depression like I have in previous years. I suspect, cutting out toxic people, like my ex-husband, is the reason. We have peace and no drama and that is a gift in itself.

Meeting new people is always fun and exciting and scary. But putting yourself out there is the only way that you will overcome those fears. You have to try and if you fail, at least you tried. I may have met someone that I admire, look up to, and have some warm fuzzy feelings about. That is another gift.

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Trying new things, learning new skills, and researching new hobbies has been a fun thing to do this year. I actually started to get into a few things that I wasn’t sure about. Turns out, I really enjoy homesteading videos and learning to be self-sufficient. I learned how to can, preserve food, and about fermentation. I learned about raising animals for meat, how to survive off land you own. Do I have my own land to do any of these things? No, I don’t. The point is that I liked learning about it and dedicated some time to actually canning food. It was fun.

I learned about growing vegetables and Herbs and I even attempted to do both. Apartment living with limited sun spoiled my fun, but I tried and I learned. That was rewarding in itself. I can still learn and plan in the future if it tickles my fancy. There are many things that I want to learn about, to try. I know I will when the time comes.

As the year comes to an end, I’m thankful for what I’ve learned, who I’ve met and connected with, and for all that will come in the future. I trust God and I know that he has a plan for us. I listen and I learn. I grow as a writer and I grow as a mother. I enjoy my life and despite the limitations of my situation, I don’t regret any of it. I have come so far in terms of health, I’m in a good place.

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I hope as the year comes to a close that you have been able to overcome struggles, hard times, and that you are at least starting to grieve and move on. It takes time to heal from things, but once you do, I promise things will get easier.

As we go into the new year, I hope your smile widens, your heart lifts, and you grow. I hope that you will try something you haven’t had time to do. Maybe you have been putting off a trip, or a vacation. Sometimes we plan and we save things for later. What if there is no time? Make sure you are enjoying life and you aren’t just going by that mundane schedule that is life. Smile. Enjoy. Even in the hard times. The little things are actually the big things.

I wish you the best Holiday Season,

Ruth

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